Revisiting Reiki: Why I’m Finally Ready to Step Back Into Energy Healing

Back in December I travelled to London to do my reiki training, and I was beyond excited. I just had this undeniable knowing that this is the right thing for me at this moment in my life.

It is not my first experience of reiki. Back in my early 20’s I attended a reiki level one course. It was an interesting experience, I can clearly remember receiving the reiki attunement, eyes closed sat in a dimly lit room and wondering where the bright light was coming from that I could see in the corner of my vision. After the attunement I opened my eyes and looked up at where the light had been in my mind but there was no light there. The reiki master just smiled at me, she knew I had seen it. I had no idea what that light was, so I just smiled back naively.

Shortly after the course I started to practice the reiki with willing volunteers. Clients within the salon I worked in who knew I had taken the course and were already regularly coming to me for Indian Head massage. I clearly remember the first time I tried out my “new skill” on – even though its over 20 years ago. I remember my client arriving to her appointment but stopping at the salon door as she ended a phone call. She came in and relaxed, and I started the Indian head massage. With her permission I asked if I could end the session with some energy healing to which she agreed. As I put my hands on her head I heard a woman’s name very clearly in my own head. Puzzled I put it to one side and finished the session by grounding my client and leaving the room. When she came out to pay, curious, I asked her if the name meant anything to her. And she kind of laughed and said yes that’s my best friends name, I was just speaking to her earlier and she’s having a rough time, I am really worried about her. I explained I had heard the name during the session and we both kind of laughed it off in that skeptical way and she left.

But it started happening more and I started to see pictures and scenes in my mind during the brief healing I was doing at the end of sessions. Only very basic but each time I would share what I had seen or heard with the client and get feedback that it was relevant to them. And I’ll be honest; it started to freak me out a bit. Shortly after a holistic therapist I worked with started telling me about her journey into meeting her spirit guides and how she had asked them to show themselves to her. That morning as she was bent over the sink rinsing her face, she felt a presence behind her, and she immediately froze. She said out loud, I am not ready to see you, and the presence instantly disappeared. This freaked me out. Could this be where my journey was also going the stronger my healing abilities got!

I think it was at this point I shut myself down to it all. I wasn’t ready. And apart from that one holistic therapist, I didn’t mix with others that had an interest in healing or anything woowoo. I had no one to support me as these abilities started to develop. I was young and naïve, and it all felt a bit much for me – to be fair I was also maybe worried that people would laugh at me and think I was a nutjob. Also, around that time I went to a spiritual fayre and had an aura photograph taken and the guy who had taken the picture saying that people who were deep into reiki always had a black hole in their aura around their heart space – again I just wasn’t in a place to question this, so I took it as a sign to back away from the reiki. I just wasn’t ready for any of it, but it had given me a taste of what might be there for me once I was ready.

Fast forward 25 odd years and the idea of returning to reiki has been ringing in my ears for at least a couple of years. The time hasn’t been right, my circumstances haven’t been right, and my belief in myself hasn’t been there but now things have just slotted into place and the time was right.

Maybe now I am older, and possibly wiser. Maybe all the things that I have learnt since my first reiki level one experience including learning EFT, mean that I now have other tools to support me through the journey of reiki attunement and then channelling reiki for others. If something awakens in me again, I will be in a better place to welcome it and develop it. Either way, I am super excited to start this path again and be able to share it with others.

I look forward so strongly to be able to hold space for clients in a different way to the space I hold in EFT. To help others to experience calm and a sense of peace.

I could question why it has taken me so long to return to reiki, but I am just trusting that I am being called back now for a reason. I look forward to sharing more as the journey unfolds.